So vexed with myself right now. Everything should be on track already, but why do I still feel so lost, so messed up? Big sacrifices have to be made right at this very point of my life now, but why am I still in such dilemma when my priority's already so well-defined?
What kind of person I am exactly, to myself?
It's a hard question to be honest, because I think I'm someone rather hard to understand.
Yes, I do have the abilities to adapt to environment accordingly, able to shape-shift into anther person if required.
Not sure on where to start from but I shall say that, I am definitely not that super cold, solemn kind of person that some people think I am. Even if I might appear to be? I think I am actually quite a friendly person if someone comes to talk to me, just that I am not those initiative type when it comes to making new friends because I don't really trust in people that I don't know. Unless I feel that there's a need to, like at work or school, if not I can't really be bother to make new friends.
Yes things do happened, it was really tough for me back in my secondary school days, I built up tons of walls back then although I am slowly trying to knock them down one by one now.
But yeah, I know that I am not alone and am just really thankful for the genuine support and encouragement that I am receiving and the opportunity that I was given. Just like what those old people says: "No regrets, just lessons learned." I do appreciate each and every single thing that has happened in my life so far, whether they are good or bad, and I take them as part of my life experience, be it relationships, studies, decisions, everything.
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